okays.i was being lousy.acting lousy.i felt tad no matter how hard i tried.i cant get myself to be high.im no longer tad marcia.ive changed to be so hard hearted tad i can reject acslyn at once.and thinking back makes me feel guilty.i can point out her faults at once without even thinking bout wad wrong i did.at some point of time,i realised tad i feel tad the whole world owns me everything.den thinking again.actually i own ppl more den they own me.
i stop being so kpo.but i oso stop being so talkative.and i put on a mask now when im in 3e1 class.no matter how my frens encourage,i cant get myself to face my class.every morning i wake up not thinking how to face this day.but thinking about how to pass this day asap.i was being LOUSY.i start not caring bout ppl around me.i started only thinking bout myself.i started to degenerate.it was like,i didnt een tok to weezheo more den 5 sentences for whole day when he was sitting right in front of me.and only after school den i pulled down myy mask.and be back to myself.but for a short while.cos the afternn ends quickly.im still lousy.i cant blame ms hong saying tad im wearing a mask and not letting her see me true self.i hate myself.i hate it really.marcia practically sucks.and i cant stand ppl saying sarcastic things pointed at me behind my back.but they keep doin so tad every now and den i felt like bursting out but i told myself not to let ppl see my other side.im being stupid.
i've written for so long.i realised i said.tad im lousy,stupid.and hate myself.
today...1st thing tad spolit my mood is smone throw tissue at my table.and i sort of guessed who it is.but nvm la.lucky they nv disturb me for whole day ler.hack care...-.-
annie today dam funny lah!pearlin use her phone call carmen den carmen call back.we was like shouting all around beside her.den i realised tad carmen jus the table behind us! lmao!!! so we all thr lafing like crazy...XDDD
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