went back to pei chun today.wah...alot of things change.like...more ppl goin back.less belongs to those i knew.more shorter 'ppl' sad right.everyday go school can see primary skul but still thinks tad peichun de students very short.wah den all the guys all change voice and looks liao.but kia liang ar.he growing to be more like duck lor.eee i so bad.XDDD
okays.
today is valentine's day.i woke up feeling moody.didnt smile all the way unitl i saw ren kai.the way he sits on bus holding the bouquet of flower really makes me lafs.
voting of president today.i voted for syazwan,but...melvin won.im happy for him and also sad for syazwan.he cried you noe...and i can only stand at the side watching him,felt so helpless and uselessT.T
haiz.i suddenly felt tad life is so miserable.like how i treat my frens.how they treat me.how happy am i wif them.how you wan to stay in ur class when i ask u out,or leave when i said something.avoiding me.avoiding my questions.ignoring wad i say.dun tok.rather tell others den me.i still duno whether im ur fren onot.but for the past one and half month,you sre not being my fren,or rather,i dun feel like ur fren.like u change after the long december.u no longer say stuff we usee to say.i miss ur attitude towards life and stuff.den we treat them as frens but not me.the least person i expect to reject me is u.but yet it happened to be you.many a times i wanna scold you off for everything u do,but i felt tad it wad not ur fault,but actually it is.everytime i wan to confront u wif ur attitude,but im afraid u wud start crying off like tad time,so i tot mayb i wun.but keeping all these in my heart,no one wud listen or noe.WELL,MAYBE WE SHUD BE QUIET FOR AWHILE,SO TAD I CAN TINK OVER WAD ARE OUR RELATIONS or mayb,i have an idea,im just a tool for you,after you use finish,u night not need me.
sorry guys.dun read if you get bored.its nothing actually.but i tink no one ever visits my blog lurh.
xuete!xuete! e4 and e2 war siah.so scary.little things like winning the cny deco can cos them to fight.aier.lucky i not in their class siah.but seriuosly,my class deco...sucks.i sort of envious of e4 lurh.ytd alot things happened sia...kana scarfed by aron and keith.and the door.played at the table,cos keith offered to lift the table.7 den reach home.its been a record for this year..cos the ever lastest is when im sec 1.zzzzim being lame hor?
lol?bored whole day i almost fell of the chair during maths class.like totally boring.log is so difficult and easy?sian...i dun even noe wad to type lo.reading comics from meiyu.like wahhh.and i haven do homework.haven iron my shirt.haven finish reading harrypotter book.haven dis haven tad.today de chinese test sucks sia.just becos us opened book den liddat treat us.mdm nah!!! u are my fav teacher in skul siah.y liddat treat me?
okays.nothing on.i need to go read comics ler.or shud i go see frenster?or shud i read others blog?
okays.
okays again!!!!!!!!!!!
anws.today super high.for no good reason.i guessed im abit crazy ba?
i like high ere high thr?cant help shouting.but wanna shout.but then oso abit moody when choir starts.cos they dam noisy.me and siyun like 80% goin to shout liao.lucky last minute we went out sia.we like 'gen choir room wu yuan' .always squeeze wif whole lot of animals makes me maddd.
3E4 CLASSROOM dam nice siahhhh.i tell u they really dam clever.but si tu bi at the same time.lols
okays.
basically i got back to terms wif my lao gong liao.but we didnt tok bout that thing.
ms hong tok to me today.sadly.i dun wan to elaborate.aaron or someone else drew me a love art.thx man! i love it! not becos got my name and his name.but becos it looks sooo bloody nice.well my eyes are like blood shot siah.and the male de is devil.muahahas
thx aaron,we all tot is u cos marilyn say u art good and u took art.so mus be u lah!XDDD
i regret crushing it up siah.now im trying to straighten it so tad it looks nice in my file.
ironing it laterXD.
this week totally sucks.im getting pressure from frens,family,class,and teachers.
god.i haven got my yellow form from misshong.she gna gime hell next week.DIE.
alot of things i wan to say.lots of ppl i want to scold.but i ....jus really felt tad the world doesnt own me,but tad doesnt mean tad i own them,too.then why the hell ppl trear me like shit.like im nothing to them?i do care bout the ppl around me,but do they?they wud just walk away thinking bout themselves.i want to be like tad,not caring bout others,but often,im at a disadvantage becos i cared bout them too much tad i neglected myself.mayb i shud be more self-centered,more selfish,more insensitive,so tad i wun hurt myself tad hard.even doin things like helping ppl pick up their clothes results in them scolding me.wtf?!
in the past i used to say life sucks and actually i doesnt.but now.i really sucks for me.ppl like annie can hav the time of their lifes in her class.happily living even after failing her exam(not sacarsm),and me.i studied hard enuf but yet in return i gained so many....crossesXXX.
so wad shud i do?degenerate and hack care?i really hate tad.wanting to scold fuck to all tad dissapoint me.all tad made me sad.im not saying who...but u know wad?I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALONE.I HATE YOU FOR PANGSEHING ME AND JOIN OTHER FUCKING GROUPS.I AHTE YOU FOR NOT WAITING.I HATE YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME.I HATE YOU FOR JOINING BEFORE I CAN SAY ANYTHING.im not saying tad u mus seek my permission for anything,BUT FOR GOD'S SAKE IM UR FREN!!! AND YET DIS IS WAD I GET IN RETURN!U NEGLECTING ME,U NOT CARING,U FUCKINGLY WALKED OUT AND AWAY BEFORE I CAN SAY ANYTHING.i hate you,wadever
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