this week totally sucks.im getting pressure from frens,family,class,and teachers.
god.i haven got my yellow form from misshong.she gna gime hell next week.DIE.
alot of things i wan to say.lots of ppl i want to scold.but i ....jus really felt tad the world doesnt own me,but tad doesnt mean tad i own them,too.then why the hell ppl trear me like shit.like im nothing to them?i do care bout the ppl around me,but do they?they wud just walk away thinking bout themselves.i want to be like tad,not caring bout others,but often,im at a disadvantage becos i cared bout them too much tad i neglected myself.mayb i shud be more self-centered,more selfish,more insensitive,so tad i wun hurt myself tad hard.even doin things like helping ppl pick up their clothes results in them scolding me.wtf?!
in the past i used to say life sucks and actually i doesnt.but now.i really sucks for me.ppl like annie can hav the time of their lifes in her class.happily living even after failing her exam(not sacarsm),and me.i studied hard enuf but yet in return i gained so many....crossesXXX.
so wad shud i do?degenerate and hack care?i really hate tad.wanting to scold fuck to all tad dissapoint me.all tad made me sad.im not saying who...but u know wad?I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALONE.I HATE YOU FOR PANGSEHING ME AND JOIN OTHER FUCKING GROUPS.I AHTE YOU FOR NOT WAITING.I HATE YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME.I HATE YOU FOR JOINING BEFORE I CAN SAY ANYTHING.im not saying tad u mus seek my permission for anything,BUT FOR GOD'S SAKE IM UR FREN!!! AND YET DIS IS WAD I GET IN RETURN!U NEGLECTING ME,U NOT CARING,U FUCKINGLY WALKED OUT AND AWAY BEFORE I CAN SAY ANYTHING.i hate you,wadever
Rainbowlin Nature Dream